I could say I don't feel anything anymore

And I'm almost certain with that about you.

Though, I still imagine us together
Even though there's no us. there's never going to be.
I still imagine us together.

Just when I thought it couldn't get any worse

I dream about you again.

How immature for me to think that every single love song I listen to

Was relevant in our lives.

I never had you.

I'm too scared to ever have you

I'm too afraid to chase after you

I'm too cowardly and I think of the consequences


The road is too hard. And I'm not working hard enough

Even so, you never really existed in my realistic life in the way I wanted you to.

My thoughts of you are so vivid though...

I WANT I WANT

so badly.

It doesn't work.

I'm half hoping it never will

There is no your side it's always mine.

You taste like tequila.

Words can never express how I feel

so I let someone's thoughts run it.
I can never be more truer.

I'm leaning towards someone else now.

That person is sort of a reflection of you...you're never really someone that can be compared to...

or replaced.

Probably, if I had someone in the future

I'd treat them the same way I'd treat you

In my head.

Who knows.

One I gain people I'm a user, a person full of deciet

and extremely manipulative

By the end of the day, I'd want someone to control me

Not otherwise.

You're too...untouchable.

You wouldn't know.

I can never be able to comprehend why:

• I pretend there's an 'us' in the past, present and future.
• I'm still thinking about you than focusing on the better, 'healthier' options
• Thoughts of you would completely stop me from doing any progressive activity
• I am longing for your voice.

~ This list can go on forever...
                                   There's always going to be a full stop somewhere.

Trying.

my thoughts exactly.

I got mad when you told me I was selfish a few years ago

Back then I knew little of the truth.

You are a serious idiot.

Sometimes I wished you disappear of the face of the earth

But then there would've been no one else that made me feel like you did.

Finally moving a couple of steps...

At this point I would like to say that I'm not tempted to think about you.

I think I'm moving on..

Everything is not under control

What if I just snap?

No matter how short or long your excuse is, it's always valid to me.

Someone's talking to me more often now...

I wonder if...with time, something might actually happen
We might go somewhere
And while you aren't here, I'm not exactly cheating on you

I don't know if I would like things this way...
I'd probably get over you if things are like this
But if you pop up anytime now, I'll fall for you all over again

I'm somewhat hoping that I wont see you there...
And in the moment that I write this,

You're there again.

There's a person out there waiting for me

But unless it's you, the clsoest they're going to get to is being my rebound.

I realised that most of my daydreams start with thinking about you.

The ideal scenes...
The types of conversations we would have...
Sweet ones.

How we could be alone in this world
We could be together
Even when it's cold.

Then our love can evolve into something beautiful.

How you would say 'I love you' in the most sincerest manner...

~~~

Oh right, it's my hsc.

If only I thought of things like this...

A little something like this

"Move on", "If you wait for it, you'll get it" and "Everything happens for a reason"

are the three quotes that are battling with my thoughts right now?

Today, I thought I did something pretty nice
but you were just looking at it in disgust.
The face
The eyes...
The forwn
I saw everything.

My sentiments exactly

replace heart with mind and you've got my dilemma

Second post of the month.

Someone just asked me about you
Funny how my friend doesnt really know
Who you are.

She's going to be surprised if she does.
And she probably wont understand...

Everything that reminds me of you

Are all suddenly shrinking out of view
Probably...I'm getting out of this
I'll get out of this

Hopefully.